“The thought that you think, you think, which attracts to it; so you think it some more, which attracts to it; so you think it some more. In other words, when you have an expectation, you’ve got a dominant thought going on, and Law of Attraction is going to deliver that to you again, and again and again. And you say “The reason that I believe this, is because it is true.” And we say, the reason that you believe it, is because you’ve practiced the thought. All that a belief is, is a thought that you keep practicing.” -Abraham
By now the last class is a blur in my memory. I remember thinking at the time that there was nothing significant that occurred to write about that was different from the previous classes. Then I was off the next day to a restful and relaxing vacation in sunny Mexico for twelve days. In Mexico I did not do any formal type of meditation practice. Instead, I chose to be mindful of being mindful as often as I could.
Now that I’m back home and meditating each day, here’s my report regarding the value I’ve gained from practicing up until now: 1) It’s ever present on my mind to be aware of what’s happening in the present moment; and 2) I’m becoming better at working the process of detaching from being sucked into being my emotional state. For example: when I feel sad, I can more easily detach myself from the feeling by recognizing that I feel sad, let my thoughts, including judgments about the feeling float away, and then simply be in the present moment Then sadness becomes a word with no energetic charge. I realize that I was not sad; I was merely thinking thoughts that caused the emotion of sadness to arise in me. I find it helps to change my language to I had thoughts that made me feel sad instead of I am sad. [This process of detaching from any emotion requires – first of all - that I desire to feel better. I’ve learned that there’s a part of me that likes the sadness, as melancholy as it might be. Soooo, part of why I have the experience of sadness at all is that, at some level, I enjoy it.]
This week I was more astonished than ever before by the power and determination of my mind to keep me from showing up in the present moment –moment by moment. Part of me has deep respect for this determination, and wishes that I could exhibit similar conscientiousness to other activities in my life –like exercising, or writing. Another part of me wants to know when I’m going to get my mind under control so we can get some real mindfulness going. And still another part of me interjects with the conversation to remember not to judge myself about how my thoughts can easily whisk me away from my focus of attention, and that’s normal, natural, and to be expected.
I’m still waiting for the practice to become more appealing. I’m being diligent, and hopeful.
Tonight will be the last class in this series. I’m leaving for Mexico tomorrow, and will be gone for eleven days. I probably won’t post again until I return. That’s okay, though. I’ll tell you then how the last night of class was, how I made out with practicing while on vacation, and what’s next for me regarding meditation.