This week I was more astonished than ever before by the power and determination of my mind to keep me from showing up in the present moment –moment by moment. Part of me has deep respect for this determination, and wishes that I could exhibit similar conscientiousness to other activities in my life –like exercising, or writing. Another part of me wants to know when I’m going to get my mind under control so we can get some real mindfulness going. And still another part of me interjects with the conversation to remember not to judge myself about how my thoughts can easily whisk me away from my focus of attention, and that’s normal, natural, and to be expected.
I’m still waiting for the practice to become more appealing. I’m being diligent, and hopeful.
Tonight will be the last class in this series. I’m leaving for Mexico tomorrow, and will be gone for eleven days. I probably won’t post again until I return. That’s okay, though. I’ll tell you then how the last night of class was, how I made out with practicing while on vacation, and what’s next for me regarding meditation.
